Monday, June 16, 2014

June Fitness Log


June 2014 Fitness Log
1st - Rest Day
2nd - 



5th, 6th, 7th - I had strep so I took rest days

8th - 8 basketball 3 on 3 games, outside in 3 hours


9th - yoga and hill sprints, with my 2 daughters and niece 




















10th - Upper Body
11th - Lower Body
12th - Full Body
13th - Hill Sprints
14th - Lots of walking
15th - Rest Day
16th - 1 mile
17th-
18th-Rest
19th-Yoga
20th-Full body
21st-Rest
22nd-Yoga
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30th-

Insurgent ~ Book Review

"One choice can destroy you"
One character can make you feel that destruction

Title: Insurgent
Author: Veronica Roth
Genre: Young adult, Dystopian World
Rating: 4 stars 

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If you LOVE a character that struggles with her choices and the choices she is forced to continue to make, then you will love this book.  If you love a love that isn't easy, then Tobias (Four) and Tris are for you.  Their world is falling apart, a war has started and they both are fighting for something different, but also some of the same things.  You just have to read it or my review :)

I am not being compensated or swayed for this review in anyway.  Well, that's a lie it is my love of books that sways me..
No copyright intended for photos, book quotes, etc. 

One choice can transform you—or it can destroy you. But every choice has consequences, and as unrest surges in the factions all around her, Tris Prior must continue trying to save those she loves—and herself—while grappling with haunting questions of grief and forgiveness, identity and loyalty, politics and love.
Tris's initiation day should have been marked by celebration and victory with her chosen faction; instead, the day ended with unspeakable horrors. War now looms as conflict between the factions and their ideologies grows. And in times of war, sides must be chosen, secrets will emerge, and choices will become even more irrevocable—and even more powerful. Transformed by her own decisions but also by haunting grief and guilt, radical new discoveries, and shifting relationships, Tris must fully embrace her Divergence, even if she does not know what she may lose by doing so.
New York Times bestselling author Veronica Roth's much-anticipated second book of the dystopian Divergent series is another intoxicating thrill ride of a story, rich with hallmark twists, heartbreaks, romance, and powerful insights about human nature.

Spoiler alert past this point, you have been warned!

"An hour ago, nothing that happened felt real to me.  Now it does." -Insurgent

How powerful those words felt for me because I knew at the end of Divergent Tris was going to have to struggle emotionally in this next book.  That she was going to have to face what happened and what was going to happen in the aftermath.  I had a hard time rating this book, I really wanted to give it five stars because Roth's work is great, but I just couldn't.  I felt like something in Tris and Tobias'(Four really transitions to Tobias in this book), anyway I feel like something is missing from their relationship.  I honestly can't tell you what it is at this point, maybe there are walls there and maybe I should give Roth 5 stars because she makes you feel it, perhaps that is the reason, but I am unsure so four stars.

"I only worked there because I wanted to be sure I could get out." (Tobias) 
I shiver.  The way he talks about getting out- it's like he thinks we're trapped.  I never thought about it that way before, and now that seems folish." -Insurgent

I knew when reading this and recalling the fact that in the first book it mentioned that the lock seemed to trap them rather than keep anyone out and knew this would be a part of the story, I could feel it.  

"They often straddle the line between trust and stupidity." -Tris thinks of the Amity

This was the first thing about Amity that is said or described by Tris that stands out to me.  Then I connect and I may have before this point, but consciously I connect that with one good thing comes a bad thing with each faction.  Nothing is perfect, nothing is completely right or really whole. 

"When he touches me, the hollowed-out feeling in my chest and stomach is not as noticeable." -Tris, Insurgent

Ahh, now that is the sappy stuff I love, but Tris and Tobias do not trust each other. The guilt over Will is so much for Tris to bare, it effects her so deeply into her soul. Throughout the whole book they hide things from each other, I feel like a rift comes into their relationship and perhaps that is where the wall I spoke of before is formed.  

"I don't believe it's more important to move forward than to find out the truth.  When I found out that I was Divergent... when I found out that Erudite would attack Abnegation... those revelations changed everything.  The truth has a way of changing a person's plans."....  
"So I agree.  But I do not change my mind."

That little bit is after Tris over hears Marcus and Johanna about the timing of the attack and information that the Abnegation was going to release.  This sets another rift within them, setting them on a path they don't yet know they are on. 

"My head pounds, a sign that I am calming down.  The graying Amity man opens a door on the left.  A label on the door says CONFLICT ROOM.  

"Are you putting me in time-out or something?" I scowl.  That is something the Amity would do: put me in time-out..."

Oh Roth's humor showing in Tris' character, I recall this made laugh out loud and I had to highlight it.  The Amity do seem very "that it parent" to me, like the parent that believes only in all organic things, speaking quietly, and time-out to avoid conflict. 

I really loved that we spent some time among the Amity, to really see how diverse the factions are.

"You froze! Someone was about to kill you and you just sat there!" He(Tobias) is yelling now.  "I thought I could rely on you at least to save your own life!"
      "Hey!" says Caleb.  "Give her a break all right?"
      "No," says Tobias, staring at me. "She doesn't need a break."  His voice softens. "What happened?"

He still believes I am strong enough that I don't need his sympathy.  I used to think he was right, but now I am not sure."

So very human in that moment, she has reacted and held together so well, she has always reacted in some way, but here she freezes.  It is very out of character for her, but it shows how much killing Will effects her.  During that I was yelling at Tobias to be nice and then I recalled he didn't know about Will.  Tris obviously suffers from PTSD

"I wish we were alone," he says.
"I almost always wish that," I say.

They do love each other! I feel like their relationship is on a constant roller coaster in this book, with the lies, the dependency and then the disagreement and Independence from each other.  It is hard to keep or hold onto a feeling with these two.  Although, I imagine it would be hard to maintain in the world they are in, so once again I applaud Roth.

"I imagine only chaos and isolation."

Tris thinks this as Evelyn explains her plan to Tobias and I am kind of in awe that she would feel that way, especially after all the corruption or perhaps it is just the drastic change that makes her afraid because it is a given that things can never return to normal for them. 

"By the time the fight dies down, my clothes are more paint-colored than black.  I decide to keep the shirt to remind me why I chose Dauntless in the first place: not because they are perfect, but because they are alive.  Because they are free."

In that moment I am also reminded why I love the Dauntless, why I would have choose them also.  So much had changed, so much destruction and damage already done.  A faction divided, in the mist of a war and they find a moment to just be alive and free.

"I think we cry to release the animal parts of us within losing our humanity.  Because inside me is a beast that snarls, and growls, and strains toward freedom, toward Tobias, and above all, toward life.  As hard as I try, I cannot kill it."

So raw so real...

"Who told me what three factions you had an aptitude for, and what our best chance was to get you to come here, and to put your mother in the last simulation to make it more effective." She(Jeanine) looks towards the doorway as the sedative sets in, making everything blur at the edges.  I look over my shoulder, and through the haze of drugs I see him.
   Caleb.

CALEB! Faction before blood! Oh no he didn't! Yes he did and the hits keep coming for Tris.

"And I broke her.  I broke her."

I feel satisfied with Tris when she declares that she can't be controlled to Jeanine and as she breaks her.  I absolutely love it and I smile feeling like a mad woman myself. 

"My family is all dead, or traitors; how can I..."
   I am not making any sense.  The sobs take over my body, my mind, everything.  He gathers me to him, and bathwater soaks my legs.  His hold is tight.  I listen to his heartbeat and, after a while, find a way to let the rhythm calm me. 
  "I'll be your family now," he says.
  "I love you," I say."

Finally, after what seems like forever she says it back to him where he can hear it!  I wonder if that is a part of his wall, he told her so long before, he knew he loved her, but it took her a while to say it back.  Did he doubt that she loved him, that she could love him? I think it is possible.

"Tobias sits on the floor, his back against the coffee table. Every part of his posture suggests ease--one leg bent, the other straight, an arm slung across his knee, his head tilted to listen.  I have never seen him look so comfortable without a gun.  I didn't think it was possible."

I soon realize that Tobias wasn't cut out for Dauntless and he does seem very comfortable among the factionless.  The factionless have always been the dreaded, Tris even said all she could imagine without factions was "chaos and isolation" but it wasn't that at all.  It seems normal to us in the real world, I mean not all of it, but I mean life without the factions.

"This lie - this lie is the worst I have ever told.  I will never be able to take it back."

Tris sides with Marcus behind Tobias' back, she is after truth and Tobias is after destruction with his mother.  I was with Tris all the way and I never trusted Evelyn, I didn't like the way she treated Tris, she treated her like she was nobody, like she wasn't there.  Could Tobias not see that?  If it was reversed I feel Tris would see it, but perhaps the small child in  Tobias just craves his mother.

"Insurgent," he says. "Noun. A person who acts in opposition to the established authority, who is not necessarily regarded as a belligerent." -Fernando, Insurgent

86% of the way into the book and we finally find out what Insurgent means... Thank you!

Okay so something bothers me and perhaps I need to reread, but when Tris and Christina leave with Marcus to the Amity where does Tobias think she is?  They ask Peter why he isn't eating dinner with his attack group.  Did the groups already detach themselves from everyone else, so Tobias doesn't notice that she is gone or what?  If someone could clear that up for me it would be great, thanks!

Tris and Tobias are on a mission wanting different out comes and when they come head to head you feel like all the air is sucked out of the room.  Her friends and the love of her life is seeing her as a traitor and I just want to scream and shout in her honor because the truth is more important and Tobias should trust her instincts by now.

"I have to pause and take a breath, because I have not convinced him; I have failed, and this is probably the last thing they will let me say before they arrest me.

"I think that you are the liar!" I say, my voice quaking.  "You tell me you love me, you trust me, you think I'm more perceptive than the average person.  And the first second that belief in my perceptiveness, the trust, that love is put to the test, it all falls apart. So you must have lied when you told me all those things... you must have, because I can't believe your love is really that feeble."
"I am still that person who would have died rather than kill you." "I am exactly who you think I am. And right now, I'm telling you that I know...I know this information will change everything we have done, and everything we are about to do."

My heart breaks, he doesn't believe her, he chooses not to believe her.

"You were right." Tobias says.."I do know who you are. I just needed to be reminded."

Pieces of my heart fold back together.  I'm telling you ROLLER COASTER RIDE!

"My name is Edith Prior," she says. "and there is much I am happy to forget."

Boy does Mrs. Roth know how to end a book?  Yes she does and I am sure the next will be just as much of a roller coaster ride for me.  Agree or disagree, I would love to hear your thoughts and take on the book, in a respectful manor of course.  We all are subject to our opinions. 






Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Divergent ~ Book Review


"One Choice can transform you"
One book can also transform you!



Title: Divergent
Author: Veronica Roth
Genre: Young adult, Dystopian World
Rating: 5 stars 
Click here for my rating system...

If you LOVE falling in love, if you enjoy reading from a strong female lead that is selfless, smart, brave, kind, and strong then Divergent is for you.  

I am not being compensated or swayed for this review in anyway.  Well, that's a lie it is my love of books that sways me..
No copyright intended for photos, book quotes, etc. 

This first book in Veronica Roth's #1 New York Times bestselling Divergent trilogy is the novel the inspired the major motion picture starring Shailene Woodley, Theo James, and Kate Winslet. This dystopian series set in a futuristic Chicago has captured the hearts of millions of teen and adult readers.
Perfect for fans of the Hunger Games and Maze Runner series, Divergent and its sequels, Insurgent and Allegiant, are the gripping story of a dystopian world transformed by courage, self-sacrifice, and love. Fans of the Divergent movie will find the book packed with just as much emotional depth and exhilarating action as the film, all told in beautiful, rich language.
One choice can transform you. Beatrice Prior's society is divided into five factions—Candor (the honest), Abnegation (the selfless), Dauntless (the brave), Amity (the peaceful), and Erudite (the intelligent). Beatrice must choose between staying with her Abnegation family and transferring factions. Her choice will shock her community and herself. But the newly christened Tris also has a secret, one she's determined to keep hidden, because in this world, what makes you different makes you dangerous.




Spoiler alert past this point, you have been warned!

"I  hear a train horn, so faint it cold easily be wind whistling through an alleyway. But I know it when I hear it.  It sounds like the Dauntless, calling me to them." - Divergent 

They called to me also and I was hooked on this book and being Divergent, myself.  Roth does a great job with visuals, I could visualize everything she was illustrating to us through Tris and that kept me very interested.  I couldn't wait to see more through this interesting characters eyes.  She is the type of character that doesn't see herself fully, but not in an  annoying way as some female characters seem to do.  Even though she lives in a completely different world she relateable and I feel myself putting myself into her shoes and going through the book as if I am her.   It is truly the best way to get lost in a book and Roth makes it easy.  

"I look at the hole again.  Goose bumps rise on my pale arms, and my stomach lurches.  If I don't do it now, I won't be able to do it at all.  I swallow hard. I don't think.  I just bend my knees and jump." -Divergent

Then I am falling with Beatrice as she becomes Tris, I feel my heart pound with hers and my body tense as she falls/we fall.  As I fall in love with the book before I even meet Four...

"He has a spare upper lip and a full lower lip.  His eyes are so deep-set that his eyelashes touch the skin under his eyebrows, and they are dark blue, and dreaming, sleeping, waiting color.....

His voice is deep and rumbles. "What's your name?"

"Um..." I don't know why I hesitate. But "Beatrice" just doesn't sound right anymore.

"Think about it," he says a faint smile curling his lips...."

Four, he's dark, he's mysterious, and he is strong, but it doesn't take long to realize he is brave, and selfless, and smart, and kind, and honest.  One thing I love about a book is not only falling in love with the characters, but falling in love with love.  Tris and Four's relationship was realistic to me for the world they lived in and it was fate that they would be together. 

"But there is something wonderful about Dauntless chaos." -Divergent

Wonderful indeed! I have no doubt if I lived in this society that I would have choose Dauntless as well, I would want nothing to more than to be fearless and brave.

"Were you a transfer too?" -Tris

"I thought I would only have trouble with the Candor asking too many questions." he(Four) says coldly. "Now I've got Stiffs, too?"

"It must be because you're so approachable," I(Tris) say flatly. "You know.  Like a bed of nails."

He stares at me, and I don't look away.  He isn't a dog, but the rules apply.  Looking away is submissive.  Looking him in the eye is a challenge.  It's my choice.

Heat rushes into my cheeks.  What will happen when this tension breaks?

But he just says, "Careful, Tris."....."

Oh witty Tris, it seems everything comes down to a choice.

It isn't just her relationship with Four, it is her relationship with the other initiatives: Christina, Al, Will, Uriah...

I turn to Christina.  She raises both eyebrows.
"What?" I ask.
"I'm developing a theory."
"And it is?"
She picks up her hamburger, grins, and says, "That you have a death wish."

There is so many things that builds on Tris' character that would take a book for me to describe, but it is her bravery, intelligence, and her selflessness that gets me.  From standing in front of the target taking Al's place to handing the gun to Four because she couldn't bare the thought of shooting him. Tris is a character that I defiantly respect.

"Ready, set, g-" 
        Before he can finish the word "go", he releases the sling and I forget him, I forget Uriah, and family, and all the things that could malfunction and lead to my death.  I hear metal sliding against metal and feel wind so intense it forces tears into my eyes as I hurtle toward the ground. 
    I feel like I am without substance, without weight.....

Held secure by the straps, I throw my arms out to the side and imagine that I am flying.  I plunge toward the street..."

Everything that Tris feels, Roth makes me feel right along with her and I love every minute of it.  The Dauntless are corrupt and towards the end of the book they take things to a whole different level, things change in a way that they can never be fixed.  The adrenaline is on a different level, it is the definition of life or death.  Unfortunately, lots of death for the main character, Tris gains and loses so much in such a short amount of time I am left wondering how she will hold herself together, but then there is Four...  

"I have something to tell you," he(Four) says.
"I might be in love with you." He smiles a little. "I'm waiting until I'm sure to tell you, though."

"That's sensible of you," I say, smiling too. "We should find some paper so you can make a list or a chart or something."

   I feel his laughter against my side, his nose sliding along my jaw, his lips pressing behind my ear.

"Maybe I'm already sure," he says, "and I just don't want to frighten you."

I laugh a little. "Then you should know better."
   "Fine," he says.  "Then I love you."...."


"We are creatures of loss; we have left everything behind.  I have no home, no path, and no certainty.  I am no longer Tris, the selfless, or Tris, the brave.

    I suppose that now, I must become more than either......."







Monday, May 26, 2014

Mom on the side lines..

      The warm sun has come out to shine it's rays of happiness on us, everyone loves summer time.  The fun, the food, and the swimming.  It just makes your soul happy, honestly it has to be some of the happiest times of the year.  Spending time outside with family, soaking up some vitamin D, camping, whatever your family enjoys.  It's great unless you are on the side lines, unless you feel down on yourself, and insecure.  It is a time when people show more skin than any other time of the year.  We strip out of our baggy sweaters and into barely there swimsuits.  This can be exciting for some, especially carefree children who just want to have fun, but for a mother or anyone who has struggled with their weight it can be difficult to enjoy it.   I have told myself for years that next summer I will not sit on the sidelines feeling insecure in my swimsuit watching everyone else enjoy themselves, and every year the next summer comes and I feel the same way.  It isn't so much the fear of others judging me but of the standards I am holding myself too.  As soon as I slip into a swimsuit, shorts, or a tank top all of the hard work I have done doesn't seem to matter.  It doesn't feel like enough, I change my clothes many times, and just feel worse and worse.  Suddenly no matter how bright the sun is shinning I have a dark cloud hanging over me.

Swimming is most kids favorite activity, it is so much fun for them. 
The kids ask to go swimming, I pull on my swimsuit and cover it with a cover up.
Then I avoid the mirror because if I look into it I will only pick myself apart.
I feel uncomfortable, the kids are smiling with joy and excitement.  I smile back, but it is forced.
We get to the pool or the beach and I tell them to go ahead, even have my husband swim with them because I am not ready to pull my cover up off.  
I watch from the sidelines as they laugh and have fun, they call me to come join them and I feel riddled with insecurities.  

The hardest part is letting my insecurities control me, letting my own body image keep me from memories being made with my children.  We will not get our first trip to the beach back when I stood back in the sand pulling at my shorts and shirt taking pictures of everyone but myself.  (later deleting the ones others snapped of me)  I didn't always stay on the sidelines, but I never felt completely comfortable and just fully enjoyed the moment.  We had fun and I did make memories, but how much more powerful would those be if it wasn't tainted by my insecurities.  
I am working hard, my body is changing slowly, but surely.  My prayer is that we all embrace our bodies, we keep working at it, but feel proud and show off what we have accomplished.  Not to feel uncomfortable in our own skin, the temple the Lord has given us.  The moments and gift of life put before us should be made the most of, my prayer is that I learn to just enjoy the moment and let the insecurities wash away.  I will no longer be the mom on the sidelines and I pray that you wont' either. 

When feeling insecure I will pray, I will let the Lord's strength guide me and push the negative thoughts out of me. I will be radiant with him on my side. 

"Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame." -Psalm 34:5





Monday, May 19, 2014

Coming SOON!

    
   This blog will officially kick off on May 26th, 2014!  If you are stopping by and we haven't kicked it off yet, please follow me or save my blog to visit again.  I will be blogging about my life, but most importantly my faith, family, fitness/sports, and love of books!  I really hope that you will decide to join me and if you want me to check out your blog just leave a link.  I LOVE blogs and have a very hospitable follow back standard.  IF you follow me, I will check out your blog and follow back.


Our first Book Review will be posted the week of May 26th, it will be a YA book!

I will post at least 1 time per week, but most likely more! 

Thanks for stopping by,
Laura

Monday, May 5, 2014

40 Days & 40 Nights: Healthy Life Challenge

      

The need to change my life in a healthy way and spiritual way has weighed heavily on my heart.  Today I am embarking on a journey I feel I was called to accomplished.  I will be trying to change my life into a positive way, with purpose in the next 40 days and 40 nights.

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Thursday, May 1, 2014

May Fitness Log

Fitness Log for May 2014


1st - Rest Day
2nd - Yoga
3rd - Hiking 
4th - Basketball
5th - 1 Mile Run (10:10) Upper Body Pyramid Workout
6th - upper body
7th - rest day
8th - Lower body HIIT
9th - Track & Field
10th - Upper Body Strength
11th- Rest day
12th- 30/20/10 Upper Body workout + Cardio
13th - lower body, stadium stairs
14th - rest day
15th - Lower body, stadium stairs
16th - Full body HIIT
17th - Rest Day
18th - Basketball 
19th - Upper Body, Dance Fitness
20 -Lower Body Workout
21 -Rest Day
22 - Full Body Workout
23 - None
24 - None
25 - Basketball (45 minute, burned over 500 calories)
26 - WOD Murph Memorial Day Challenge!
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